Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Another conclusion

The results are out, and this is one of the most heart wrenching periods of the year. People's spirits are the lowest I've ever seen, with all that disappointed faces and rejected moods. This was not the case for most people, especially for those who promoted, because their celebration was done in the presence of someone else's low key in life. This wasn't the case for me even though I made it pass the hurdle. I wasn't rejoicing nor celebrating, for I know the following year ahead will be darn different for me.

I tear at the thought of how I've gotten so used to everything and everytime, it's all about you and you and nothing else. I can still recall you saying:
"It's so good we're in the same PW group too! So much better right!"

How I'm gonna miss that kind of opportunities together with you in the future. But again I must constantly remind myself that I mustn't let it get to me, because I'm being very very selfish thinking about you staying and all when it might not be the best choice available. I'm sorry, if at any one point in time, I appeared selfish. I never meant to, just like I never meant to make you mad at me.

In Economics, we learnt the concept of 'relative pricing'. About how one good is more expensive relative to another. In other words, how one's judgement is relative to a certain benchmark he/she have set. This benchmark is more of something you have already achieved, and hence seek to fufill something beyond what you have already achieved. How else can we show the unlimited wants and desires of Man?

For instance, somebody who has already promoted would have his/her criteria of promotion achieved or satisfied, and hence his/her main concern now would be to push up his/her grades. On the contrary, someone on the verge of promoting would have his/her criteria of promotion placed as a main concern, since that is something he/she hasn't achieved. 2 marks to the former might mean a different in one grade, but 2 marks to the latter might mean promoting and retaining. Really people, does the former really need that 2 fucking marks? I say no, because hell, you're living in somebody else's dreams damnit. So get a life, and be contented with your current benchmark, rather than proclaiming and whining to the god-damned world about failing to get a B or C because you needed 2 more marks or some shit along those lines.

Talk about the ills of Man.

I say -

L'infantile terrible of Man

Or maybe, Ivan's just a sad man at the end of every day. But it's alright! My baby cheers me up all the time with every little bit of thing she does. =) I love you so much.

posted@2:20 AM

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